Saga Becker about the sexual assaults – Aftonbladet

The Saga Becker had his face pressed into the sheet and an arm around his neck.

Now, says the actor about the sexual abuse that went on for years.

– You feel dirty, she says.

Last year, the actor Saga Becker , 26 through in the movie “Something must be broken “and received a Guldbagge for Best Actress. She became the first trans person to win the prize. Since then, Saga praised for his open way of talking about the way from man to woman. To her growing up tough and were lined with self-injury, eating disorders and suicidal thoughts.

The “Summer in P1″ she shares of another painful memory. As a new adult subjected Saga of sexual abuse.

“Have trouble breathing”

– I am 19 years old, I’m lying naked in a bed. Naked in a bed with a man who is more than twice as old as me. I lie on my stomach and he pressed down my face against the sheet. I find it hard to change when he puts his arm around my neck and presses for, she says.

It was when she moved to Malmo from his home town of Ronneby she had several relationships with men who subjected her to abuse. Saga, who was not feeling well, it became a part of self-injury.

– all hung together. It’s a big part of my life and has influenced me a lot. It has made me feel very bad. You feel dirty, she says to Aftonbladet.

To break the silence

The turning point came when Saga Becker first began talking about that she felt bad in his body, contacted the care and started a gender identity investigation. Now she wants to break the silence around sexual abuse.

– I have nothing to lose it, do not I have it so I can just sit and wait for someone else to do it. I had been able to ignore tell you about it, I have no obligations to do so. But if I get the chance to tell if it is worth gold, says Saga.

“I will not back down”

But to talk about the abuse, and growing up as transgender, are not simple.

– It was a little painful to write certain things, but I also see it as I process it. I thought I was the only one to go through what I did, but then it turned out that it is quite common.

What would you say to young transgender people who feel like you did ?

– Continue to struggle alone, it gets better. We are changing many things in society right now, it’s running. I’m not going back and I will not disappoint, and I know that many with me. This is just the beginning.

The “Summer in P1″ with Saga Becker aired today 13:00 and available to listen to in SR Play.

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